I've been missing you a lot lately. I've been reflecting on the past over and over and over again trying to figure out if there was any way I could have kept you with me. But I always come up short - because at the end of the day, my job, my top priority was to keep you safe. I was so afraid that you would be harmed by your biological paternal side.. and I couldn't allow that to happen just because I wanted you. I couldn't put you in that type of situation where you had the potential to be harmed.
It's been almost 7 years now... your birthday is quickly approaching. I can't even believe this long has passed. I texted your mom requesting to know you.... for your siblings to know you... for us to be able to be in your life.. but I was ignored. That hurt a lot. We really wish to know you and for you to know that you're loved by so many more people than you know.
That was my first "attempt" which I wrote about a few blog posts back....
And this was my next attempt on March 12, 2018
I didn't receive any response back..
On April 1st - Easter day 2018 I texted your mom again
She pretty much skipped completely over my request for us to meet. I wish she would have just said no or that you're not ready or really anything... But it is how it is.
I then asked for some photos of you and she sent me a few.
And a few others - but my computer is being glitchy and making it difficult for me add more. <3
Anyways - I love you very much and I think about you every day and hope you're doing well.
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