Skype visit.

Dear Bennett,
I had a Skype visit with you and your family on December 20th. I sent you gifts!
I only have one picture though of you - it's of you playing with a puzzle I've sent. Since we did Skype instead of Facetime I was not able to snap any pictures of our visit :( But I really wish I could have.
One of the first things you said to me during our visit together was ask me, "Can I come to your house?" It melted my heart. I wish so bad that you could come to my house and meet your brother and your sister who love you SO much, along with myself. I wish you could play together and form friendships with one another more than anything else. Your parents informed you that I live too far away and that's why we have to do visits on the computer or on the phone. You didn't seem to like that answer and you went in the other room for a short while. But then when you came back in you spoke far wiser than your years by simply stating, "I've changed my mind." About staying in the other room and not coming back in to talk with us. It was the sweetest thing. You are so intelligent and bright Bennett, I'm so proud of you!

I made you a blanket, I sent a couple puzzles, I sent a small Elmo lego set, and a book called, "Guess how much I miss you?" I contemplated sending the book in fear that it could somehow upset your parents but they seemed to be okay with it... your mom said that she would add it to the books that she reads with you at night. I know that you won't understand at this age but I hope that one day you may remember the book. We have the same one with us and we (your siblings and I) read it together at night too because it reminds us of you. We will continue reading it together and I will always be open and receptive to talking to your siblings about you.
Lailah tells me all the time about how she misses you and wishes she could know you. She was only 3 (your age now!) when you were born but she remembers my pregnancy with you and she remembers I went to the hospital to have you. We always think of you Bennett and if I could rewind time I would have figured out any possible way to have kept you with our family. I would be homeless in a shelter with you and Lailah if that is what it would have taken. If only I knew then all of which I know now. I'm sorry. I don't know what else to say other than, I'm sorry. I just can wish that one day you'll try to understand.

To get back on track here...
You were playing with the Elmo legos as soon as you seen it lol you opened it and just started playing with it. I was so happy to see that you loved it. Once our visit was over your mom sent me a picture of you doing one of the puzzles I had sent and I was happy to see that you also enjoyed them too. :) (see picture above! :) )
I've learned that you can do simple math and count well! I've also learned that you love to watch domino competition videos and marble runs on YouTube. For half of our visit you sat watching marble runs and at one point you looked up to tell us, "You all talk too much!" HAHAHA. That's probably true. :P
Seeing you this year was the best gift I could have asked for. You've grown so much in just the past year alone. Last year you were barely talking and now you're counting and doing simple math and forming thoughts like a pro! It is insane.
I'm hoping for the day that I can wrap my arms around you in a hug once again and tell you that I've never let you go from my heart or soul. How you have always been apart of me and I've been here, watching you from afar to the best of my ability. I hope you'll see how hard I try to be a part of your life in the ways that I can and am allowed.

I also want to say that I've gotten a few updates on you and your family the past couple months. Your mom has found out shes expecting twins! Your brothers. It was a huge shock to me but I'm happy for her and your family. I hope that you form close bonds to your brothers and that you have a lot of fun growing up with them. One day hopefully you'll be able to meet all your siblings and have relationships with them all. <3

I love you Bennett - that has never stopped and I don't believe it ever could.
Until the future.... my little puzzle piece.